Stephie Fangy
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Sorry guys if I stress ur out.. Din mean too. It's juz tat I'm not meeting my standards tis sem. Nth seems to excite me.. Perhaps it's due to the worry of being able to maintain my grades anot and hearing tat many of my fellow course mates having good grades too. Kind of feel sick at the idea tat everyone is getting 'A's, tis wld indicate the same thing as everyone is doin badly.. You know wat I mean? Dun even noe where I stand, Dean's List is not out. Wanted to know who my opponents are exactly..
I'm sick of the cycle of reading lots and attempting at tutorials, there seemed to be none tat I can do, except 'Hydraulics', so I go for tutorials unprepared and can't understand wat's goin on 5 out of 6 tutorial sessions per week. Kinda worried tat I might end up with lousy grades, can't afford to screw up wat I 'built up' so far.. Haiz...
Weekend was spent at gym and shopping with coz. My body was telling me tat I've been neglecting them for the past 2 years, but at least I managed to complete my usuals-of those daes and not have any aches the next dae morning. Maybe is the swimming during holidaes.
Coz has revamped his room, so envious, wishing tat I could start working and saving up more for luxurious stuff like tat. Pretty cozy in there, at least it's a little space he had tried to create for himself, can feel tat kind of satisfaction ya noe. Feeling lonely these daes, yet at the same time, I wished to be alone and not be bothered by anyone. -Pouts- Dunno wat I'm tinking about these daes..
I juz spent the whole nite of Sat and half og Sun inish watching the full episodes of Kim Sam Soon, made me cried a few times.. Those scenes can never come true in real life la, esp in Singapore but it made me rethink about my relationship--still waiting for my fairytale actually. Coz said mine has oready gone stale and things were looking weird, i tink i'm juz numb ba.. Or my love-hormones have expired their 2yrs life span? <---tis is a scientifically proven fact. =P
Haiz, everything juz seemed to be in pain-in-the-ass... Where's my fairytale?! I'm thinking too much and complaining too often, pls pardon me..